Tuesday, January 16, 2007

1,2,3.. a brand new me!

Hello everyone! I've had some changes happen this weekend I want to let you in on...

First, I quit my job. It wasn't easy and I was loaded with guilt afterwards (I have no idea why.. just the way I am) but I really had no choice. I do feel an amazing sense of relief now. It doesn't help my financial situation much, but I'm sure something else will come along that is less stressful and I'll actually enjoy doing.

Second, I ordered a free trial of a supplement I've been hearing loads about on the radio. It's called serenity and it sounds like just what I need. I get a free 30 day supply and I'll know within that 30 days if it works for me or not. Then I can decide if I want to continue on an auto-renew program or cancel. I was diagnosed with depression back in 2000. I've tried it all to keep it at bay. None of the anti-depressants worked for me. After the 4th one and loads of money I gave up on them. Thankfully shortly afterwards I learned about low-carb and was able to keep it under control with LC and exercise. Since letting myself go after LC I've really hit bottom. I didn't realize how bad it was until this weekend. So I'm praying this will be what I need to get me started back on to healthier paths. My physical health won't happen until my mental health is in good shape. For those of you who have never dealt with depression, it's not a pretty sight. Most people tell you it's in your head, or in cases like mine, may suggest you aren't a Christian if you have depression. So very wrong on both counts. Depression can be brought about by many issues, each person is different in their causes and responses. Mine is a chemical imbalance. When I let it get this far off, it's hard to get back on track. Also, for those of you who have friends or loved ones who deal with this, please keep the following in mind: We don't need advice.. we need understanding. Someone to just listen to how we feel, maybe cry with us or give us a hug and remind us we are not alone.

Third, I've decided to throw myself back into a hobby I love.. which is running my website again. My new domain should be up and running in the next couple of days. When I have everything working I'll be sure to share the link here, so keep a eye out for it. I'll then be changing a few things on this blog to match the site, since this will be my "official" blog. :0)


Lady Atkins said...

I'f you're not taking a complete B supplement you should consider it. Deepression can also be linked to B deficiency. I take a B-50 every day, but that's just because I just plain feel better on it. You also might want to look into St. John's Wort. 900mg a day (usually 3 tablets) is the standard dose. I tried it but it only dented my depression. I take Celexa now and and do good on it.

Sparky's Girl said...

Thanks for the tip on the B vitamins. I take a multi, but I'm sure it's not enough. I'll look for the B-50. Even if it doesn't help my depression, it would be nice it if made me feel somewhat better. As for meds, I've been on Celexa, Effexor, Welbutrin and Lexapro.. all of them had side effects I couldn't live with. I'm glad the Celexa is working for you. I'm sure I'll find something that will help.. it's just a matter of trial and error. I'm really hoping this Serenity will help me.