Friday, December 07, 2007

Kick me.. (ignore the sign)


I'm not wearing padding either....

I'm depressed right now. This is very unusual for me this time of year. I love Christmas. It's my favorite time of year. But this year I'm having a hard time getting into it. I've never had this problem before, so it's weird to feel this way.

I would venture to say part of it is exhaustion. This move took a lot out of me. It also took an awful lot out of our bank account, which is probably another reason I'm not feeling so festive. But I think the biggest part of the problems is that when I started preparing for the move, I got too busy to take care of myself. The result? In two short months I've regained about 10 lbs. No..that's incorrect. I've regained OVER 10 lbs. I was at 159 when I quit making progress. Now I'm at 171. That just royally stinks! It's depressing and frustrating. Anyway, I've changed my progress tickers to reflect the bad news.

My challenge now isn't to get back on track. The hardest part will be to overcome the emotions so I can get back on track. See, when I quit low-carbing, I slowly start having health issues. Most of them creep back on so slowly that I don't notice them until they are pretty bad. My depression issues are that way. I can manage without medications when I eat as I should. But when I start eating carbs they slowly edge back in. Then one morning I wake up, pull the covers back over my head and wish I could sleep forever. That's pretty much where I am now. I'm very frustrated with myself. I guess I should just be glad that I haven't gained it all back already. I think the only reason the damage is minor is because I did eat low-carb foods... just not all the time. There were way too many fast food places in my menu the last two months, and I didn't make good choices.

So, this is the start of a new day, right? I can get back on track and do my best to ignore my emotional roller coaster ride until I am well again. Or at least that's what I keep telling myself. Once again I'm going to use this blog to keep me on the up and up. I'll try to post daily if I can (except Sunday). Knowing that I need to check in may be just enough of a kick in the pants to help me get there.

So get your boots on and prepare for some exercise... my rear end is huge and you'll be kicking frequently.

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

Did you ever see smugmug.com? You can display and sell your pictures there.

Dunno if it works or not, but it is interesting looking. Never heard of it before myself, but thought it'd be worth pointing you there as this is something you are interested in.

Good Luck!

Sparky's Girl said...

Thanks for the tip! I'll look into it!

size8jeans said...

Aw, it's understandable. The move was a big change and a lot of work. You can get back to where you were! :)

Sparky's Girl said...

Thanks for the encouragement Victoria! I know I can get there.. I just wish I'd have done better so I would be further along. You know how impatient we can be sometimes. LOL

Cindy Moore said...

We're here for you!! Good that you've stopped the backslide before it got too bad!

Sparky's Girl said...

Thanks for the support Cindy. I'm doing well again and starting to feel better.

Sherrie said...

Hey SG, you will be back there before you know it!!!

So how are you going? don't force me to kick you!!!! :D

Sparky's Girl said...

Hey Sherrie! Always good to see you!

I'm struggling a bit, but hanging in there. A kick probably wouldn't hurt right now (well, yeah technically it WOULD hurt, but you know what I mean..) I'm willing to be booted to the moon if that's what it takes to shake me outta this blah that has overtaken my motivation lately.