Personal Update

Today I thought I'd just share an update on my progress.

I wish I had more to report. Sadly I haven't done that well lately. I seem to be spinning my wheels but going no where. I think my biggest problem is stress. I don't deal with it properly and it tends to get the better of me. Emotional eating is a problem I deal with regularly. While I do much better than I used to, it's still an issue. I just have to keep reminding myself to take one day at a time.

I'm trying a new battle plan starting today. I'll once again plan out every bite that goes into my mouth, including "emergency" foods. You know... those times when things don't go as planned and you can't eat what you intended to. It seems to happen to me often enough that I need to be better prepared for it. I also am going to watch my macro nutrients closely. I do seem to do better when my calories are a bit lower. It may be that I'm simply taking in more food than I need and when watching my calories a bit I tend to eat only what is necessary. I still believe that quality is more important than quantity when it comes to calories, but if I'm over eating it doesn't help. I'll closely track everything again and see how it goes. (I used to do that all the time... I got lazy.)

Another step will be more water. I'm not getting enough in. Also more exercise. Even if it's just an extra few minutes, I think it will be beneficial.

I strongly suspect I have thyroid issues. I've had proof in the past of this (t3 tests), but it wasn't enough to convince my doctor. I then lost my insurance due to a job change and never pursued it further. I may be getting insurance soon, and if I do you can bet getting my thyroid checked will be on the top of the list. I'm having a lot of symptoms that fall right in line with thyroid dysfunction. This may also explain why I'm having such a tough time losing lately. There is also the distinct possibility that my short stint on Kimkins really messed up my metabolism. It could be all of the above. I hope to find out soon.

I plan to keep myself busy today while I struggle to get back on track. Being sick last week really messed up my determination to eat right. I ended up just eating what was convenient instead. Never a good thing. And again I had a lot of stress. It's not something I feel like getting into, but it was a tough week and I'm still recovering emotionally.

Have a great Monday everyone!

Let's Talk About Me

My title makes sense for several reasons:

#1. It's not nice to talk about other people.
#2. It's my blog.
#3. It's April first and I'm a fool.
#4. I have nothing else to talk about. :0)

I can't find anything interesting to share with you today. So I thought I'd bore you with "me" stuff.

Ever since our move, just before Thanksgiving, I've been struggling with weight loss. I'd do fine for a bit, but then blow it again. I'm not sure where my motivation and determination went, but they definitely eloped without even leaving a note. I've struggled to find them and have had no such luck. Recently I've hit rock bottom. I honestly haven't felt this bad since I was diagnosed with FMS and depression almost 8 years ago. I know this funk is a combination of many factors, some of which I can't talk about right now. Let's just say I'm under a huge load of stress and I'm not eating right (at least not very often) or exercising. I also suspect some thyroid issues, but that's something I'll have to discuss with a doctor soon.

So yesterday I'm dragging myself out of bed, enthusiastically ready to face to another day, when I realize how much I'm hurting myself by not taking care of my own nutritional needs. It's not like I didn't already know that, so I guess I just needed a reminder.

Anyway, I did well yesterday. I didn't count or obess over food, but I did keep a running tally in my head. My carbs were under 20, which is mostly all I'm concerned with right now. I'm staying off the scale as well. I'm not ready to look at numbers. I'll peek at them when I'm feeling more confident.

Today has started off well. I've walked on the treadmill for 40 minutes and went almost 1.5 miles. Not really fast, but not too shabby considering I haven't stepped foot on that machine since I moved. I forgot how good I feel after a walk. I literally feel more energized and am in a better mood than I was before the exercise.

I'm now enjoying the last of my 20 oz. of Special K protein water. The powdered stuff you put in your own bottle, not the pre-mixed stuff, which is loaded with sugar. My meal plan is as follows:

Breakfast: EAS Protein Shake
Snack: ChocoPerfection Bar
Lunch: Grilled Pork Loin and green beans
Snack: ????
Dinner: Chicken Salad and a veggie side of some sort

I've already downed 12 oz of water outside of the 20 oz of protein water I'm finishing up. I'm planning on at least another 32 oz of plain water today.

My photography schooling is going great. I'm loving every minute of it and wish I had the money for better equipment. I have a photo shoot coming up the end of this month, but to be honest, It's embarrassing to show up with a point-and-shoot camera. Basically that's what I have. It's not a DSLR. I have one lens and a converter I can attach. So anyway, I'm dealing with it, but it limits me and that's frustrating.


Ok, I guess that's all for now. If I find something interesting to share later, and have the time, then I'll be back later today. Meanwhile, have a great one!